This blog post touched my heart this morning. My own family has been plagued by depression for generations, on both sides. It is an ugly disease. It is one that strikes at the heart of all those around. It is deep. It is dark. It makes no sense. It gives way to excuses. While I have not struggled with depression myself, I have been deeply impacted by the generational impacts of the depression in our family. The secrecy. The shame. The anger. Excuses over ownership. Condemnation over grace. In most it creates bitterness. In some it has created deep sorrow and despair. In me? Well in me, it pushed walls up. It closed off my heart. It created a need for perfection and striving-striving to do good, striving to keep peace, striving to nurture those hurting. It almost sucked me into its pit of despair, but I fought hard and chose something else. I had too much at stake. Miracle daughters. A giving, loving man of faith for a husband. I had friends, deep, true friendships. I had a purpose, one I did not wish to see lost in bitterness and despair. I am thankful for all of that. I am thankful for lessons in forgiveness, for understanding that grace is simply allowing God’s grace to flow to another. I am thankful I have learned to open my heart to His mercies, the friendships, the ministries. He gave me a word-one of truth. He has brought it to me repeatedly, most often in those dark moments when the depression of another is seeping into the lives of all around, when it seems to become too much. I pray today you remember this: generational patterns DO NOT HAVE to carry on through generations. We have a choice. We have a way to overcome. Depression is a physical disease. It may continue in my family line, but the secrecy, the shame, the excuses, the striving don’t have to. Let His spirit flow as streams of living water. He will refresh. He will revive. He will bring forth the new.
“Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing. Now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:18-20 NIV
For the post that touched my heart, reminded me we are not alone on this journey… http://www.aholyexperience.com/2014/10/how-god-saved-my-marriage/