It is hard to believe the holiday season is here. Time marches on. School started and I welcomed it with open arms. While I relish the lazier days of summer, opportunity to step away from the schedules, I am always ready for back to school. Ready for the new schedules. Ready for structure. The structure and the schedules can fill up, and if not careful, the schedules crowd out everything else.
I found myself there a few weeks back. Not just there, but feeling overwhelmed. Then a small health issue and time was not enough. The instinct for most of us it to push through. I tell myself to give a little more, wake up a little earlier, go to bed a little later, skip lunch, say no to the home parties/social events. No one wins in that. Fatigue, frustration, loss of focus-that is all to be gained.
The only way to move forward is to take a step back. It’s the counter-intuitive thing to do. I step back. I block off some time each day for a few weeks. I have to stop. It is not until I stop I can see what has consumed the time, the days. It is not until I stop I can assess the time and the activities, knowing if the pieces fit or are indeed too much. Those moments are for figuring out what is real, what is clutter. Those moments are for taking time to go back to my true loves-making the time for that reminds me who I am, the life I have, and how to move forward becomes clear.
I talk about “white space” a lot when I talk about managing time. White space gives me opportunity to breathe, to take in life, but they also give me opportunity for the unexpected. When life becomes overwhelming, the plates can’t all be juggled and kept spinning the white spaces become the moments of clarity. The white spaces are on my calendar and in the schedule I keep. But spiritually, the white space is when I am still-the moments I quit telling God and instead I release it all and wait for Him.
Step back in a moment of nothingness to be still, to find the way to move forward.