This year my word is consistent. In the past my word for the year has been more about a quality I want to have or a skill I want to improve. However, this year, after a roller coaster of a ride these past three years, I felt prayerfully led to be consistent. Like Paul, I so often know what to do, and yet I fail to do it. I desire to serve God with my whole being-body, spirit and mind. Yet so often these past three years I have let fear or doubt sink into the depths of my mind, keeping me from God’s best.
It is scary approaching 50. Not only that, but as I approach 50 my twin girls turn 18 and leave the next for college. I find myself longing to have something to take the place of 18 years at home, giving full-time to manage our home and raise our daughters. In the midst of thinking toward the future I can fall into the trap of second guessing, wondering if I have been enough, and doubting there is a place for me. I am learning though, learning that Satan knows just how to sidetrack me. I am learning how to overcome the doubt, stop the negative talk before it settles deep into my mind. I am growing.
I am grateful for the lessons of these past few years. I can’t say I have any clearer sense of what lies ahead, but this I know. The more consistent I am to fill my mind with God’s word, to establish habits that bring me greater health and physical strength, the more able I am to see the appointments God has placed before me right now. I am also reminded as I stop along the path each day to sit in His presence, He desires nothing more from than I finish this stay-at-home mom thing strong! I am so thankful for friends who speak truth into my life. I am so thankful for the habit or morning quiet time with God that sets my heart, mind and spirit straight for the day. This year, the task at hand is to keep my heart, mind and spirit straight-to be consistent: unchanging in achievement or effect over a period of time; compatible or in agreement with something (God!)