I haven’t posted in a while, a long while. For one, it is summer and time to savor the moments with family, enjoy a less hectic schedule. More importantly though I have been processing God’s work in my life.
I began this blog as an accountability piece for myself. I am a processor, a thinker. That is not always a good thing. I can get bogged down in the thinking and fail to act. I can get caught up in worry and anxiousness as I let my thoughts get the best of me. I often fall back into the old habit of striving, instead of waiting. I have done a lot of all the above over the past 5-6 years. A collapse in economy, changes in my relationship with family, having to end practical support for someone my husband and I love and honor, wondering what life would hold when my girls completed high school, and suddenly I found myself living in a place of anxiety and worry. My faith faltered. In all honesty, I was more shaken than I had ever been.
Today as I write, I am so incredibly grateful for God’s grace. I am so thankful He reminded me time and time again that faltering in my faith does not make me less, nor does it in any way impact His love for me, my salvation, my worth. More than that, I am glad he saw me through the storm, He opened my eyes to the lessons I needed to learn, and that in the end, He brought about His purposes in His time. “But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect.” I Corinthians 15:10a
The journey is the important part of life. Embracing the season, acknowledging where we are, sharing the struggles. My faith faltered. Would I love to have walked the path in perfect faith? I would love to be without sin, to never grieve my Savior, but He alone holds that place of perfection. I treasure the journey. I treasure each lesson. I treasure knowing Him in new ways. His grace is sufficient. His grace has indeed had an effect on me.
If you are struggling today, if you feel less than, remember He alone is perfect. Remember His grace is sufficient. Let His grace have an effect upon your heart, mind and actions.