It has been a long while. I honestly wasn’t sure I was going to keep the blog. The end of 2018 and beginning of 2019 have been a season of taking stock, trying to align my activities with my purpose, my roles. The blog had a big “?” by it. Honestly, all social media has had a big “?” by it. Facebook has been kicked to the curb, but the blog shall remain. I miss writing. I miss the experience of contemplating, assessing what I am learning in order to share, or to simply think out loud.
My word this year is TRUTH. I had come to realize that much of the anxiety I have struggled with the past few years was a result of believing the lies, letting my mind run wild before stopping to assess the truth. I realized I was blaming myself for relationships that weren’t healing, when the truth is I can’t change others. I found that much of my being guarded, holding back was believing keeping the peace and caring for others mattered more than taking care of me, being honest about my feelings.
Just as I struggled with my own truth, it is evident the world around us is void of truth. We don’t know what to believe. The news, which used pride itself on factual presentation of events, has become editorial. Social media, especially Facebook, has become a platform for showing only our best life, creating a facade. Even the church is plagued. Prosperity and blessing are preached. Performance is emphasized over character, knowing God. We want to allow everyone to create their own truth.
Here is what I am finding just three months in. TRUTH is powerful. TRUTH is freeing. TRUTH requires bravery.
Truth is not relative. Truth is truth. It is fact. It is actuality. Priscilla Shirer says it best, “Truth is who God is and what He says it is.” My desire to focus on truth, to step back, breathe and find the truth has simplified my decision making, has begun to free me from an identity tied up in what others think of me. It is not an excuse to be dismissive, or arrogant. It is not about being right. It is the freedom to pause in the moment and to look for what is factual, what is actual. It is the peace that comes with asking what God says, who He says I am, the other person is. TRUTH leads to GRACE, because in that moment of TRUTH I remember who I am, whose I am, what matters most, and I can speak, act, decide with GRACE. I am centered. I am anchored, no longer tossed about, but held firmly in the TRUTH.
The world needs a little more truth. I’d love for you to join me in the pursuit of truth. I’d love for you to visit again as I share throughout this year the truths I am learning, embracing.